Sorry for a lack of updates

I’ve been pretty busy recently; I started counselling last week to try and help with a few things I’ve been struggling with recently. My first session I didn’t think went so well because my therapist seemed a bit uncaring and disinterested because I scored low on the risk assessment. I thought I’d give it one more try before asking to change therapists and I’m glad I did; today’s session went much better because we went through some things (not everything) in depth and she seemed a lot more interested in what I had to say. She even gave some advice on something I’ve been struggling with for a while now but haven’t been able to talk about. I hope these sessions will be helpful in the long run but I guess it’s still early days.

In other news, I’m going to visit family up north this weekend which I’m hoping will help relieve some stress. It’s going to be cold but I’m prepared for that; I know the cold can make my stomach muscles hurt so I’ll be bringing a load of heat pads and my hot water bottle with me.

I hope everyone is having a safe Halloween.

I feel like I’m getting worse. I’m still on the prednisolone (25mg daily) and I’ve got my humira on Monday, but it feels like things aren’t getting any better. I’m trying to be as positive as I can to avoid stress, as that seems to be one of my main triggers, and I’m sticking to the low fibre diet as much as I can, but the last few days have been pretty bad. I’m conflicted about calling the helpline because I’m scared of what they might say. Plus, it seems pointless because I’ve got an appointment with my GI on 13th and the nurse may just say wait until then. I also don’t want them to suggest I come in for a flexi then decide I need to stay in the hospital again. I can’t be dealing with yet another hospital stay! I’m trying not to stress about it but I just feel like nothing is working and that surgery may be my only option now.

Sorry for ranting but I just needed to get this stuff off my chest.