Just a little update

Sorry for the radio silence recently, I’ve just not had anything to report. I’m still waiting on a date for my take-down, and even though I’m meant to be seeing my GI Tuesday afternoon, because of work, I need to move the appointment. It kind of feels like they want to wait until after Christmas but I would prefer it to be over as soon as possible. I’m getting frustrated with it and my bag and stoma cause a bit of anxiety because I’m having to wait.

I’m back to full-time now at work which has been going fine. My new manager (who started about two weeks before I went off for surgery in June) seems to e getting the hang of how our team works and our two newest colleagues are doing well which has made the atmosphere a lot less stressful and bitchy. This has helped me get back into the swing of things but I think because I know I’m going to be off again soon, I don’t want to get too comfortable. Despite having worked there for over four years now, I still feel like I need to prove my abilities to everyone because I have had so much time off. And I still feel this sometimes even after my manager explained how much he valued me as a member of the team. I’m sure it’ll all settle down once I’ve had my take down and have returned to work again, I just can’t help but feel a little inferior sometimes.

Returning to work…

I went back to work last week but on a phased return basis meaning I’d work from ten in the morning until two in the afternoon on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday (with Thursday as a day off) for at least the first week. I thought that went really well last week so I decided to increase my hours abd stayed until four yesterday. Despite it being really quiet at work, the time went somewhat fast and I felt fine afterwards. Until I got home that is. Then it hit me just how tired I actually was. I had to miss D&d because there was no way I’d be able to consentrate for that long, and ending up spending the evening in bed watching Scrubs. As a result I only worked until two today. I’ve got tomorrow off but I can’t sleep in because I’ve got an appointment to see my surgeon in the morning. I’m going to go back to working six hours on Friday and Saturday but I won’t be increasing my hours any further for at least another two weeks; I don’t want to risk burning myself out before I’ve even get back up to fulltime hours.

Had a great Father’s Day BBQ with my fiance and both sets of parents. I’ve been pretty tired today (probably from going back to work this week) but I had a good day anyway. Also, I got loads of cuddles with Button who is pointedly ignoring me in this picture.

First week back at work

So I went back to work on Wednesday this week, only for four hour shifts but I’m still really tired. Hopefully, I’ll be less tired as I do more; I’m increasing my hours each week until I’m back up to full-time again which I think is the best way to go. I need to get back into a routine of getting up early and being on my feet for most of the day.

En route to Winchester to meet up with work colleagues then we’re all going out for a meal. This’ll be the first time I’ve seen any of them (aside from my manager) in more than two months. I’m a little nervous but also looking forward to it.
I go back to work on Wednesday but only for a short, four-hour shift. I’m doing a gradual increase of hours each week so I don’t overdo it and end up needing time off again. I can’t wait for things to be back to normal.